Monday, December 27, 2010

loveday

It's my birthday today...
a time when I still embody the excited 10yr old girl
who wants the day to be all about her...

...except when you have a child of your own
then it's an ordinary day of what they need first...

...except when you were in a marriage for 7 yrs
and he lovingly still made the day about you...

...except that it's just my daughter & I now
so that 10yr is pouting and stomping and feeling a deep sadness...

So I sit and hug my 10yr old and let her know that I know it's a momentous day today because it's the day 44 yrs ago that the unique light of her spirit birthed into being. I explain to her that this is another occasion where we have to be gentle with ourself because it's the first. I bring her onto my lap, look into her pain-filled eyes and tell her that we're going to learn together to love ourselves...

...especially today...because starting right now it's our loveday.

2 comments:

Bohemian Single Mom said...

You ROCK!!
Have a wonderful, awesome, "loveday" and you will both cherish today's memories forever.
You are brave and strong and loved and admired!!

10 already? wow - they grow up so fast!!!

kerrdelune said...

Oh Lil, a belated happy birthday with much love and a Happy New year too. There are better times ahead for all of us.